But say goodbye in peace, if for no other reason but your own need to survive and live well.Jack of all trades ballin' like Jordan you punk Fake inside the paint in fact I know you can't Do half of the shit that you was claimin' in the county Suckas on yo jock you claim you run the block Polyurethane busta cracked in half You claim you foldin' bank but I know yo bank stank I lived around the corner I seen you fully smoked Must I say some more you weighed a buck 04 You sold ya TV for a buck cause it was way too late Now they sent you upstate and you done gained some weight You's a baller lyin' to them youngstas quick Got them thinkin' you sick and representin' yo click But you's an old basehead kickin' too much hype Yo bicentennial pipe it got rally stripes And if they knew yo identity You'd probably be the victim of a stickin' (ugh ugh) You ain't got to lie to kick it You ain't got to lie to kick it To them tricks and them bitches Out to get a nigga's riches You ain't got to lie to kick it To them tricks and them bitches Out to get a nigga's riches You ain't got to lie to kick it To them tricks and them bitches (aight!), (you know what I'm sayin') Out to get a nigga's riches (real niggas up, hoes down) You ain't got to lie to kick it To them tricks and them bitches (aight!) Out to get a nigga's riches There is a time to say hello and there is definitely a time to say goodbye. And someone to stand by them, even if from afar.īut don't ever forget about yourself in the midst of loving and forgiving. Because to me, those who are the most difficult in life usually have the toughest stories, and as cliche as it may sound, need love the most. So many times I've been hurt by someone or betrayed by someone or talked to like I'm nothing by someone. I could hate so many people in my life right now. Anger, on the other hand, well, fuck them, right? But what does anger do? Does it solve anything? Isn't it better to forgive and be at peace and thankful for everything you learned and gained from someone or something? At least that's what I think. It's easier than feeling broken and hurt because that feels very uncontrollable. Quite often this is the feeling you want to feel compared to others. Thankful for understanding and honesty and peace between two souls who will forever be connected. And when I saw him for the last time once again, I was thankful. Thankful for the opportunity to rewrite an ending that, for quite some time, didn't sit right with me. The truth is, that through it all, he made me a more compassionate person, a more patient person, a more forgiving person, a more understanding person, a more loving person, a more hopeful person, and a more passionate person, for better or worse.Īnd when I saw him for the first time again, 7 years later, I was thankful. It's funny who comes into your life and when. I only remember the the brokenness that I felt. It's funny what your mind holds on to and, at the same time, what you will never recall again. I can remember throwing up all over my gray American Eagle skirt as I drove back to his house, begging. I can remember how my heart felt like it was dead as I sat on the blacktop of a playground parking lot, begging. I can vividly remember running through campus that day feeling everything all at once, trying to get to my car, begging. How it feels like you are breaking internally. How you can't imagine feeling whole again. Think about how debilitating that feeling is. To have an empty mind with thoughts constantly running through it. Think about how it felt to not be able to breathe, not be able to focus, not be able to think about anything else, not be able to plan anything past what is happening at that current moment. When you could feel the hollowness as the pain poured out simultaneously. Think about that time when you could actually feel the pain searing through your body. I want you to think about how it feels to have your heart broken.
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